Feel just okay. Had a lot of trouble gettin to sleep

I had trouble falling asleep last night. I tried and almost got up out of bed to try later. I turned on my back and finally fell asleep after running thoughts going around in my head.  Belly now hurts a bit and swelled early around 5pm. Now out of Mint capsules, we will have to look to order more. I need some Aloe vera caps too.

Passing a little gas which does help. Feeling lonely again and looking for new people to hang around with.  Not having much luck.

My lips have been very dry the last few days

No call from new friend Bob

nothing, no phone call. So i am still undecided as to what to do about it,

No response from Bob, my new friend after several calls

I don't know what is going on. But more and more I am getting the silent treatment. I mean I like this guy more then he thinks I like him. But man the silent treatment just kills me.

We shall see goin fwd

Rouph day and depressed again

after a few nights/days of not passing very much stool to feel "normal", I again feel very depressed and wanting badly to go to the ER and complain about something needs to be done about the increasing pain I am feeling, upwards toward the top of my stomach. I am thinking after a few days before this I drank at least a cup and half of milk. I was thinking I need to finish up this milk before it spoils and doesn't want to waste "it".  I wrote several emails to family and friends letting them know of my discomfort and the possible visit to the ER today. Including Allen.

I received 2 bottles of Genric Gas-ex from Amazon. I took 2 and felt better after 2 hours.  I took a pretty good nap and as I sit here later a few hours after that nap I am feeling lethargic and hungry.  But a bit anioxas about eating because of it causing more discomfort. I am practically writing this in the dark because I don't have the energy to get up to eat or fix something for supper. I am feeling really depressed again...  For some reason, my sinus is really dry and bleedy.  My left nostril I can't stop picking at it.

I also need to call Centurylink to work out payment plans.  I am past due on my phone/DSL bill. I have not felt up to it to call.

Allen in Chicago is counting on me being there for a visit in a few weeks from today.

April has been on the mend and doing really good holding her pee pee. She has been a real good pal. Looked over at one of her pictures with Gregory at the Oregon coastline. And she is a such a beautiful dog. Not only to me but in Gods eyes. I love my April so much!!

Belly sore after Catfish and Gravy this afternoon

1-hour later my belly feels stuck on this after I ate. Going to take some MOM and see what happens. Also very cold outside today

Feeling much better this week

I am starting to feel better about myself and my feeling towards others. I still have a lot to work to do on myself but intime that will come.  I am will not quit or give up that easy, As i told myself this today.  I will not give up easlry and will fight a good fight. I must hold on to my dreams and Never give up!  Always try.  Always proceed with envy and passion in my pants and my forhead.

Really super depressed

For awhile there a few weeks back now i was dating a guy names Bob. When went on a final date and i guess it did not go well. I called him twice and no return phone.  I called to ask the coming Sunday "would you like to go to the movies" I never got a response.  He used to call me up.  So i been super depressed over that.

I was thinking during making supper tonight on how i am failing at relationships. I know about a guy for less then a month and then it fails for one reason or another

I dont ever hear from the guy again. Ron on the otherhand is much different and wants to keep intouch.  I hear from Ron all the time.